I have been traipsing over the same ground for the last couple of weeks. “Smell of Rain on Dust” talks about a canoe…

2/6/20 (on 2/10) [dreams] I dreamed of Gabriel. Twice actually. The first dream he was all ages, well, youthful ones anyway. But it…

5 months today. The lockdown for coronavirus combined with the time since I lost you feels like lifetimes have passed. I sleep, not…

3/18/2020 I had a dream about Gabriel last night. He wasn’t 18, but neither was he 5/6 as the dreams’ context suggests. When…

I am not changed But/Yet, I am not the same Did you appreciate my laugh? It’s still there, even if less frequent. Did…

For most of the last five months, I have held at bay the “worry” or “not enough” hounds. Last night, though, wore on…

TL:DR – I developed my first roll of film with a test roll of HP5, adjusting shutter speed to tell differences in exposure…

I have been working on staying in the feelings and writing less. Not to write less, but so I can feel all these…

Jenna came over last night. We talked about Gabriel and I shared with her two things that I’d found on his iPod about…

2/28/20 4 months.  I awoke early. I think I did most days this week. I still see the 2-4 am time slot often….