I am going through his desk and school items. A couple of days ago, I found “thank you” notes he had written to family [and friends] that had given him graduation gifts.

Today I saw his chemistry notebook. Notes at the front and doodles at the back. I feel a little intrusive going through his things.

He had always been open with me, so I never felt like I should snoop. And I know, it’s not snooping now. It’s still a little weird. I wonder if I’m wondering whether I’ll find an answer as to why he died though.